Saturday, June 21
The day after the anniversary of Ruthie passing away. Somehow it seems like this one was hard for me but it was easier than usual for Susie. I was thinking about and got emotional thinking about how Elijah may have felt over these years about losing his sister. I then often think about how different life would be with her in it. Man. How different, it seems, that life would be with her in it. But then again we would not have Anna in our lives without Ruthie. She has been there throughout this post divorce period and I can't imagine going through it without her. I think about that dinner we had at Chile's. And that lunch we had at Taco Bell. (The lunch at Chile's was way better by the way.) But for a night I felt like I had a life. I'm going to the casino on Tuesday with Mike and it feels like I have a life. Maybe I need to go get coffee more often. Me and Vivat g...